Mia.. The Lost Child

Why did i turn foolish?
Like i have no heart.
Where is my own heart?
i can't hear what my heart says, always says, always warns me.
I met many people talk this and that, and i do their command without knowing what my own heart says.


I used to have a rule on my self.
Love someone who you love, not who love you... Just say thanks if you met them...
I can stand with that principle for years... and i'm fine...
But why this walls of Jericho is broken down, and break my own stability...?
I MY ME MINE!!! not they their them theirs, moreover he his him and him... i should not care about them. It doesn't mean i do not appreciate other people, but why i did all the things they said???
I should care about me myself. I should know my self. I must respect my self. Self esteem. It feels like i betray my self.

I should not be hurry, i should know, and wait more patiently.

Yes, you! You were late to warn me that whatever everybody told you, you must back to your deep heart. What it says.

My mistake...
I didn't tell my besties. Sorry, i should tell you, guys, asked for your help. Why did i prefer to them? they who do not know me well...
i don't know why i can't trust nobody this time...
even i can't trust me myself...

Eventually, i fall for my own mistake...
You, you are my mistake...
You ask me to try...
I'm trying, but i can't forget him..
though this one that even cannot see me...


Sorry..
after asking to myself,
i got presumption...
It's not love from the very first time..
i just want to thank for your kindness to me..
and the fact that sooner or later i will burden my self, and hurts you.
It precisely..
you obsessed me, you got me...
i obsessed him, i can't embrace him yet, but it doesn't matter at all for me...
So, will yo okay to release me?

Hey...
someone told me,
find someone who you need, not who you want.
Which one is better?
Eventually, when you need someone, you empower him, when you want someone, you'll save him well. I'm right, ain't i?
Hey, you! You were wrong, mam...
I should choose the second one, not the first option.
Arrrrrgh!!!!

Conclusion:
Make what they say as considerations, not the instructions.
Find the people you can trust.
All is back to your little heart, all the best is deep in your heart.
Obey the rule that had been made by yourself.
I MY ME MINE!!!
I love myself
I must listen to my heart
Untie me off
The live is mine
the decision is mine
the happiness is mine... (since i'm sure that i'm not the only your happiness, and you can find your happiness from the other)
let me on my own way...

Follow up:
Let's stop it...
Find your own stuffs...