Why is it like this?

Tuhaaaan..
Wae ireoke?
Wae wae wae?
Kenapa An oppa berenti?
Does he hate me?
Does I annoy him?
Is my teaching not good?
Is he burdened by my request to teach me Hangeul?
Does he feel hard because he doesn't need to pay me?
Does he really feel so tired after work? (He said so, and I guessed so)
Why?
When he told me about that reason, I believe that it's not fully true. I'm sure there's another reason behind.

To be honest, I am so so so disappointed with him, but I can't blame him before I talk directly with him tomorrow.

I hate him because I'm worried that tomorrow will be our last meeting. I won't it really happen. I also hate him because he makes my dream is harder to achieve. I have to get my way by myself, though he said he will help me to study Korean. However, I'm afraid he can't, since he's so busy.

But that's okay. That thing won't stop me dreaming. I will run harder instead. I'm like a horse, and An oppa gave me a hard punch on my back.

I promise to myself and to An oppa, at last at September 26 2014, I'll be standing in front of the gate of Indonesian Embassy for South Korea, and I'll take a picture, and let the world knows that I'm unstopable.

Thank you, An ajussi.